I'm so confused.Ray's gone,and I don't know whether I'm coming or going!Shouldn't I be bawling my ass off? I'm not.I honestly feel like a ton of weight has been lifted off my shoulders.The FINAL blow happened last night when we were at his sisters house.I really don't know what started the whole arguement between her and I other than her jumping in the middle of the arguement I was having w/ Ray's brothers bitch girlfriend that nobody there liked cuz she's a speed freak that flirts with everyone's man and dresses like a total slut.My sister stopped by,and she was trying to sell my baby sister crank I I flipped the script on her ass.But it was NOT in front of any children.So Ray's sister jumps in and kicks off her shoes as if to fight while her husband is holding her back....and let me tell you,the penetentiary Tammi almost slipped and knocked her head off....but I thank God that I have trained myself to STOP and THINK before I do anything that would jeapordize my freedom.The whole family is Tex-Mex,and everyone knows hispanic families stick together,so then several more family members jump in calling me names INCLUDING Ray's 18 year old daughter! Ray said,or did NOTHING! Because if I were to lose my cool,and knock the Fxxx out of one of them,they would call the cops,and guess who would go to jail??? ME!!!! Because for one,I have a criminal history,and 2 how the hell can I fight 15 or more ho's?
So on the way home I told Ray...he COULD have stepped in and settle things down.Like maybe saying something like "Hey! Hold up,I love my family,but I won't allow u to disrespect her".....But he did nothing.
We got home,I helped him pack his shit,and he's gone.
I don't care who it is....my family or even a preacher...I would NEVER allow anybody to disrespect the person I love!~THAT SIMPLE.
I can already see,the single life is gona be great!He called me crying to "PLEASE give him one more chance" I told his funky ass that he used up his last chance!
I'm keeping the computer on so he can't call! I don't even want to hear his whining! So when I check my e-mail,I got about 20 text messages from his cell phone.He's a poor excuse for a human being,and I REFUSE this time to take him back.
I wish I could say I'm happy as hell...cuz I'm not.But I'm at peace,because I'm free from his jail cell that he keeps me in with no friends b/c he can't stand for me to talk to anybody,EVEN my family.
So I consider this the first day of the rest of my life!
Monday, June 20, 2005
NO MORE RAY!
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hiya hun
It sounds like you made the right choice, thats not to say that it is going to be easy though. Mail me if you need to vent, hugs and take care x x x
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