Some Days are Diamonds/Some Days are Zirconias

WANNA SEE THE FACE OF A NUTTY PERSON??

    OK----So lets get to the brass tacks(whatever that means)....Guess I'll let it all hang out....(NO WALKER NOT IN THE CHEST AREA U BOOBY MAN!)....You too Bill!
  As most of u know I applied for Disability.Little did I know sincve the recession,people have been making SSI/Disabilty work overtime.
  So that SOME of us really need help from the Govt.Tit(as ppl say)...I fit ALL the criteria(so many lawyers say.It's a slam-dunk case.
  I was diagnosed several years ago with Bipolar Type2.....O.C.D.(obsessive compulsive disorder)....borderline schittzophrenia.....and other personality disorders that make life one big horrible roller coaster.People say I don't(usually)show any outward signs,and I'm a non-violent person,that CAN flip the script,but haven't physically since..umm....long story.
     No sympathy needed.....just an FYI.....I've been through multitudes of tests.From testing my blood(salt)counts...to brain activity stuff.Not sure where or how I got these monkeys on my back,but with meds,I can hold them at bay(MOST of the time)
  But PLEASE lets not confuse my prior post as one of my mental illnesses.I was told by people that know me personally that say "It's about damn time you decided to TELL IT LIKE IT IS"!!....so no regrets.
    I have my ups & downs but mostly nobody EVER knows,cuz I smile and laugh and keep cracking my warped jokes,which is my mechanism of hiding whats REALLY going on inside at times.Some say,its a mask to hide whats REALLY under my skin.So I don't feel that it interferes w/ my daily living like I've seen it happen to alot of people ,so I have to be truly grateful for my way of grinnin'  & bearin' it.

    BTW,unlike some ppl think,these many tests are NOT just by mouth or on paper.The docs have blood drawn to see how my chemicals are in my dome (in laymens terms,so its easy to understand.....just a quick explanation)----->.The blood they take,determines how much natural salt is producing to keep you chemically balanced,and if you aren't producing enough,I'll just explain what I've been told by a doctor---> "your mind is like a car that has spark plugs that fire great,and cause ur car to run great....but if your missing certain salts and other chemicals that ur brain needs,then your spark plugs mis-fire terribly"
  So with that being said...I've wanted second,third forth and more(so-called) mechanic shops to get a better result...and its all the same.UUuGH!
  Am I crazy?Depends on what ur definition of "crazy"means.I'm harmless,mostly to others.Really.I self sabatage,and self inflict things to try and get this freakin monkey off my back.But it's there and all I can do isd treat the sucker.I REFUSED to believe the first few psychs,because it seemed like u can tell them ANYTHING and roll with it.But,blood tests and other exams contadict me telling professionals"THERE'S NOT SHIT WRONG WITH ME!!!"But my physical testing,especially missing certain type salts that soooo many others have that I don't...cuz I just refused to be called "crazy"...which is a word my doctors will actually yell at me for useing.They say"Not CRAZY,just chemically inbalanced"!
   As I said...I just want to lay it on the line,and maybe re-read this later on down the road and see what progress I've made or haven't.
  I felt like it was time to be REAL and hope I have a friend left now that isn't running for the hills.                                  ;-}
HEY WAIT!!! COME BACK.lol