I DID IT !!

I FINALLY went out on a limb and combined both blogs....I initially closed the first blog I started in 2002,because lets just say "boy did I air some dirty laundry"! Plus the fact I had so many skeletons blogged in there,everytime you opened that page a bone flew out and hit me! Alot of stuff my job didn't need to read about.Since a co-worker somehow found my blog,I hit the panic button and shut her down,only for invited ppl only.
   But hey! Like Paula says"IT IS WHAT IT IS"! I used to be ashamed of the fact that I was once a stripper,and used my blog to get alot of that type of stuff off my chest.Not proud of going to prison,but blogged that issue as well,and STILL have the wierdest nightmarews about being in the penetentiary again.Probably not such a good idea for corporate bosses to read about(even though alot of them are sitting right in the middle of a club getting that booby-in-the-face table dance on Saturdays!)
   OK--so back in the day,I could probably blog stuff that would make eyes bug out....but THIS Tammi is comfortable with who I am today.Sure,I made mistakes,and God knbows,for my 2 kiddo's sake alone,I wish I could go back and do things SO different.God KNOWS my heart.
  So to me...THIS was a big step taking the shut down blog and adding it to this one.Because it took ALL of what happened in my life,tom make the person that I am today.I still make poor decisions sometimes.I wish I were perfect and could say I'm the PERFECT decision maker,but reality is...I'm not.All I can do is strive like hell to stay on the straight and narrow,and away from people that aren't going down the path I'm on.
   As some recall,I DID go to the reunion at the club I danced at the most,and seen some of the same people I worked with back in the day...and one in particular is STILL making HUGE bucks.I think those HUGE boobs she got and a few extra things she done to herself is what keeps those 100's coming...but even when the owner said"wanna come back"? I couldn't help but laugh my a*** off....I was remembering what a friend I've known for years said to me....I told him one day,I said "Wade,I sure miss that money,I think I'll dance again"...his reply was "where are you gona dance at?The VFW?"  (which is a club type place where the Veterans of Foreign War go to drink) for those that aren't familiar.I laughed till my sides hurt.I could have been offended.But let's face it.I'm a Mi-Mi now,and since I wasn't the perfect role model for my girls',maybe I can make it up w/ my grandbabies and friends n family's kiddo's.I mean,lets face it.Youth is gone....but even though I see people MY age still clocking dollars,I had that money problem called "easy-come-easy-go",and if you'll notice,girls are STILL making $200-$800 or more a night,but never have a THING to show for it.So go figure.
    Anyways...I can't believe I actually followed those directions and combined both blogs...pretty cool,huh?
   I'm really not as much ashamed...nor am I proud of my past.It is what it is...I can only live for this day and try to get through it without being that silly Tammi I once was.God has forgiven me,just as my girls have,so what can I say? I learned from each and every step I took and everytime I stepped too high and fell on my face.So this was a big deal putting my old stuff on this blog.
      All I can say is "thank the Man above,He broke the mold when it came to me"...lol