Saturday, September 23, 2006

MOVING....SORTA...?

I have decided that the roomate thing was NOT working.Had a big blowout with the juvenile delinquent causing the termination of the roomie and I.Had to ask them to hit the road.I rented a storage and decided to move to an unknown location due to the gangster-type nutty family they have telling me they'll be back to kill me(ha ha) Not scared of that,that's for sure....but even after packing up my computer and boxing up this ton of stuff in this house that's too big for ONE person...I decided to unpack my computer and stay here moving things little by little throughout the month,as I am paid up for a while,so since I can't get my money back....why move and lose that.One huge reason I'm definately moving is because there is nothing in this tiny town that's barely on the map and an hour away from anything like better jobs,a theatre(lol)...just stuff like that.Yes,my life is up in the air,but the peace I got now being away from the daily crap is awesome.It's raining today,and it actually is nice.We needed it.Since the others have been here,it's been a constant swinging door of rude friends and family members showing up thoughout the day and night.Her grandkids and their gangster-type boyfriends was about all I could take.My family may have their quirky ways,but they sure never disrespected others' home by knocking on the door in the middle of the night to come sleep on the couch with the boyfriend type crap.Good grief,my family would have shut the door in my face if I done something so ridiculous.
As a person,Ms.Silva was OK....but she didn't know how to say "no" and so I became the ultimate b**** having to tell her "sorry,but they can't stay here".One night would turn into 2,then 3,then well.....enough was enough....besides the fact that the grandson had the stickiest fingers I've ever seen.I have had everything from money to jewelry,to the simplest things stolen,and anyone that came to see me had to lock their purse in their trunk(so to speak).
Anyways...so that's that.I like surrounding myself with people I can trust and not come in one day to see my lock had been popped on my bedroom door.Just crap like that had to stop.It's so quite here,you could hear a pin drop and I love it.Guess I'm getting older.I hate leaving this big-O house,but relocating would be my best move.No opportunities here in no-where-ville.
Headed to check on my faves...I haven't had access to the net until I just unpacked it today.I thought about going to the library,but wound up just hauling it all back and puttting it back together.Might as well get my money's worth since all my bills haven't been whacked....yet.I'll do all that soon,though when I decide which large city I plan on going to.I'm still trying to decide which one would be best (job-wise).
Missed all my fellow B.B.'s......headed your way though. :-}

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

yeah you'll miss everyone but me since your moving to a big city. but i thought thats how it would be you used me for what you needed now your happy. im sorry im not good enough for you but thats fine with me. tammi i wish you the best in life but that friend of mine really wants her son's guitar and stuff that stevie stole........she wants it back you closed the door on me so i wish you the best in life im going to stay with amanda but your going to say i had that planned well i didn't i really do love you but i cant love someone who lies so much have a great life im sorry i wont be in it goodbye have a good time stay clean and out of trouble i might not be around so say goodbye to because i made you my world and you broke that off you shredded my heart thank you love you forever CJ guess you could say your ex girlfriend!

barman said...

OK...

When moving to a big city, consider the suburbs. You get the benifits of the big city without some of the not so nice things.

Tamara said...

CJ*You don't know the half of it because I can't talk to you about it.You HAVE someone up your butt.The larger city is one you KNOW I'm speaking of....Stevie is in more trouble than you can imagine,in fact he's headed to TYC.But he brought THAT on himself.I said I would do what I could do and see what I could find out about that stuff,and I will do what I promised just so he will continue to get the consequences that every 15 year old gets for being a juvenile delinquent.I tried and gave him every opportunity to handle it himself,but he obviously chooses not to,so I will do what I can as soon as I can.But why is it that I can't bring those things when your GF is there?
These games are what has drove me to the brink.Just because I chose to think things thru and not move to where YOU think I should (by you),it doesn't mean that everything I said was a lie.I am grown and entitled to change my mind! I can't move to another itty bitty city like where you live.You draw a check.I have to work.Hellllllooo?Not another small one-horse town.I'm on my own.I don't have my mother to lean on like you do.I do,but she's got physical problems,and I couldn't stress my Dad.So basically,
I have to do what is sensable for me.
Hope that makes sense to you.So why haven't you called on the phone? Why air this laundry here?

Walker said...

It must be uncomfortable to be where you are now especially when you don’t want to be there.
I hope you find a place to move to that meets everything you need or are missing right now.

I am not a roommate person even though this year has been one of roommates moving in and out.
I am on my second roomie for the year and as I say I can’t wait until he leaves at the end of the month I know I have another coming right after.
The first one was waiting for me when I got back from NZ. She said 3 weeks was here for 4 months, drove me fucken nuts talking about finding her BF hanging on the balcony with her bathrobe.
Makes me question the calendars they have in Italy and her taste in bathrobes.
I had to throw her out because asking her to leave was not working.
I had another friend ask me to stay for three weeks and he has been here for a month now but I nipped that in bud yesterday when I offered to help him move at the end of the month and now I am letting another friend move in for….you guessed it, 3 weeks.
I could live with a partner but a roommate fuck that after the next person moves in.
I am actually thinking of NOT having friends anymore. lol
It must be hard living away from the things you enjoy and maybe the change of scenery will make you happier.

xxheatherxx said...

I cannot do roomies. AT ALL! I have a hard time dealing with my family somedays... lol

Long time no read... Ill be back!

heather

El Jefe said...

Tammi, good luck with the move.

I can't wait to find out which big city you settle on.

Tamara said...

Barman*I considered that actually.I used to love staying at my Nanny and Pa-Pa's outside of Houston.We were like in the country,but only minutes from Houston where all the action was at.Best of both worlds.....hugs!!

Monogram Queen said...

Hi Tammi thanks for visiting me. I'm going to add you to my faves also and explore your blog when I get a little more time. Today is pretty hectic. Best of luck to you Hon. I respect someone who has the guts to make needed changes in their life.

Tamara said...

PATTI CAKE*Your welcome.No wonder why so many people I link to....also link to you.Great minds think alike,they say.(smile)
Your site is genuine.Real.I hope alot of others click on over there and check out yours.You seem like a really cool person.
EL JEFE*You always sneak up on me,you lil devil you.It's always nice to see that you are checking in on me.I still wish you would get a blog,so we can pick YOUR mind.lol
Your A-OK in my books hun!....hugs

Tamara said...

xxHEATHERxx..It's usually ALWAYS been just me and my daughters.....Well,with the exception of my idiot days when I got locked up and had to do time.Unfortunately,they did time as well.Some people ask me HOW in the world did you handle doing nearly 5 years,mostly on a maximum security prison....and my first thought is....it wasn't ME doing the time...it was mostly my kiddo's that did the REAL time.
I read your blog,and I adore the way you take such good care of your kids.Your the Mom that I SHOULD have been.So I love reading about people that put their kids PRIORITY ONE,like you do...instead of the partying and drugs/alcahol(the bar scene).This isn't me kicking myself in the a***...I done that too many years.Just a reality check every now and then keeps my head on straight.
If this isn't the Mom of Pudge,Sissy,Punk,Stretch,Beans...I feel nutty.But if so.....I mean all of the above.
toodles....T.

xxheatherxx said...

Yes Tammi... its me!

I went through all that before I had my kids... believe me.. hard too!! very hard!!

Tamara said...

xxHEATHERxx**Whew! I started thinking...wait!No link back to Heather....am I talking to another Heather,and not who I THINK I'm talking to?
And #2...I wonder if this makes any sense to anybody else but me and you?
(wink)

Walker said...

It gets better we have all gone through something like this.
I went across world to be with someone only to find out she had started up with the one she left for me and then wait 6 weeks someplace you were not wanted to come home.
People are not who they seem to be sometimes but as long as you are true to yourself they could go fuck themselves.

Take care

oceanbug said...

I am VERY happy for you! Making those big moves can be hard, starting over and all but in the end I think you will be a happier person. Time to move on... GOOD FOR YOU! Plase let us know how you are doing.