Tuesday, June 27, 2006

TAMMI IN HER PRISON UNIFORM WITH KIDS


Yahoo! Photos - tdcOh,this is certainly nothing to flaunt around.In fact it's shameful.But I can hold my head up high now and truly say:It's OKAY.Not only have my children and God forgiven me...but I had to learn to forgive myself.I always thought"Geez,I'm NOT HURTING ANYONE"! "I JUST WANT TO PARTY"!! "LEAVE ME ALONE"!
But there is no "alone" when you have 2 beautiful girls depending on you to be there for them.Not only being there physically....but emotionally as well.
So then,somewhere along the lines.FUN isn't FUN anymore.It turns into a money addiction,a drug addiction,an eating disorder,etc...I could go on and on...The point is... He sure put me in a place to BE ALONE alright.Even in a dorm with 155 women,your gona feel all by yourself.Be careful what you ask for...you just might get it.
I Thank my Higher Power for leading this stubborn horse to that trough. :-}

5 comments:

Lisa said...

I can't see any photos :(

I can only imagine how it must feel to be in that position. You should be so SO proud of yourself for no longer being there. Good for you Tammi!

Tamara said...

I added another pic through posting....I guess it just wants to give me a hard time like the rest of this whole day has!
I've almost pulled ALL my hair out today.I'm too discouraged and stressed to even type it out.
Got one headache from hxxxx THAT'S for sure!

Lisa said...

Aw, I'm sorry to read you've been having a rough day...hope you're feeling better this evening. *hugs*

I love your photos, your daughters certainly are beautiful, you must be so proud of them :)

Tamara said...

oops,I couldn't get the pic to go through...then posted it twice(I realized this when I opened IE).I was useing Firefox for the browser,which obviously is a no-no when pix are involved.Internet Explorer shows all my pix,but Firefox just doesn't.How odd.I think I need my settings adjusted.

barman said...

Good for you Tammi. Just think a few years back there is probably no way you would have worn that again. You have come a long way. I know this was posted a few days ago. I hope you have long ago lost that headache. I think I had a particularly nasty headache that day to. No fun what so ever.

By the way, very nice picture. The three of you look super.