NO MORE MAIL MONEY! UuGH!

WOW! EVEN THE SUN SHINES ON A DOGS A~~~ SOMETIMES!
I know this is a really hard for alot of people to fathom....and believe me,I'm STILL trying to figure out why this awesome person picked ME out of literally hundreds/thousands of ex-inmates....but OMG I'm so glad/grateful that he did.When he first asked me if I would do this,I blogged it and got some really bad responses and negativity ,so I chose not to share this until now....but now I'm thinking...what the heck...I pay my bills and can blog what I want,and I can always delete any nasty opinions.(grinning)But,here's how it all started:Okay,this guy read some of the questions people asked me on the yahoo message boards,I think "cutewomenprisoners"was the ones he read.....but I got a personal email last July asking me if I would care to answer some personal prison questions and he said he would gladly pay me for my detailed experiences.I thought at first...Ohhhh nooo wayyy!!He's HAS to be a stalker or a killer or something,YIKES!....BUT he encouraged me to get a P.O.Box,and answer 3-4 questions and every-so-often and he said would send me $$ to my P.O. box.O.K.Trying 2 make along story short.I began answering the typicalquestions,nothing odd or nutty....maybe my answers were nutty,but not his Q.'s....lol...I figured "what the hey",I didn't have a problem answering lock-up questions for FREE...so what's the difference.
Anyways....against everyone's advice,I took my chances,answered a few questions and lo and behold the first payment I got was a single $100 bill,and I thought "how cool"...well,next I got $500 and I REALLY almost fell out!! And then the BIG SHOCKERS started coming regularly! Right up until last week,I have recieved Express Mails with 10 and 20 crisp $100 bills! Many many times I have recieved money ranging from usually $700,$800,$1,000,$1,500 up to $2,000 that he faithfully sent for my hours on the computer describing what the life of an ex
drug addict---ex-stripper--ex-con---and even what all led me to the point of spending 4 and a half years of my life in prison.I discussed my ins and outs of the county jail systems that led up to me finally going to prison.Most people that have read his questions say "Oh YEA!He's SURELY writing a book"!!Someone said he may even be with Internal Affairs w/ the prison systems nationwide... but for whatever reason...It didn't concern me,as long as I felt that there was no danger.He lives up north and I live all the way down south...so that was some comfort.
Anyways...He has been so good to me...although my life has never seemed to be like others',I still never have felt that it was worthy enough for someone to spend that much money on an ex-screw-up like myself.lol... I certainly can't imagine it being a best seller,that's for sure.ha ha...Matter-of-fact,there are alot of things that took place in my life,and truthfully I'd like to throw them ALL in some kind of box and put a big lock on it,never to be opened or thought of again.Maybe even set the box on fire! But,in alot of ways it kinda felt pretty theraputic to be able to talk certain things out and sort out what I seen and done in prison,in hopes that by keeping the ugly memories alive,that it would help keep me OUT of prison....anyways...throughout my money making ordeal,he has let me know that he is TOTALLY married,and I respected that ,and no boundries were ever crossed either way.He has sent me literally thousands of dollars,and holy cow,I got so spoiled I didn't go back to work after I got out of the hospital.It gave me the chance to get better w/out going back to work still sick w/ my lungs filled up.....But NOW is the time.Gotta get off my spoiled a~~~ and back to a REAL job.But gosh.it's so hard for an ex-con to find a job that pays wellenough to live like I have been living thanks to him....no...I just wannapay my bills(lol)....but anyways.....wish me luck...I'll need it when the supervisors run that background check,or even ask me if I have ever had a felony.There is a serious stigma in hiring a felon,ya know.I committed a "paper-crime"....so it's not as if I'm a molestor trying to get a job at a daycare...but at the same time...even paper crimes tend to make ppl nervous.Oddly enough,it's hard to say that I don't blame them in some ways...because a small business may WANT to trust you with their money....but there's always a chance that ppl backslide and could rob the owner blind... Well,this is getting too long(lol) I just wanna say...It's been a great run,and to think...I have never even met the awesome man that sent the funds.
I live a good,decent clean life now....but I never could have imagined that all the ugly and just downright dramatic things could have payed so many bills and bought me out of debt.I could never imagine how I could ever thank this person enough for being the angel that swooped down and helped piece back a life that was torn and tattered like an old dishrag.NOT just the money...But his advice,his confidence and encouragement brought my self-confidence and self-worth up many many notches.What a sweet sweet guy.Few and obviously far between where I come from.
Of course NOW it's my job to KEEP me out of debt on my own....EeeK! For a spend-a-holic,that's hard to do.But not impossible.