WOW!WHAT A SURPRISE RESPONSE!

AN EMAIL I RECIEVED FROM SOMEONE THAT READ THE POST BEFORE THIS ONE......HOW COOL. Tammi,

I just finished reading your most recent entry in blogger. And over the last year or so have read everything that I could find written by you. I found one of your stories in a search one night, and as I read it i was amazed.

Your last entry is even more so amazing to me. I think you started that blog by stating that ....you know that it will be hard for people to fathom.... Well, not for me. I can totally understand how your friend would have the desire to hear directly from you what life in prison was like, and from reading your postings i can see where he could feel comfortable having this relationship with you because you seem so genuine. There aren't many women who have been in your situation that can freely talk about it the way that you do. To most people it's like a taboo subject. And you just take it and work magic with it.

I've been fasinated by women in prison for as long as i can remember. To me there is nothing in this world more erotic. And please know that i say this with nothing but respect for you and other women who are or have been in jail or prison. I'm not sure what you would call it... Fantasy? Fetish? I do know that for me nothing touches it.

I don't know if your friend has the same feelings on this as i do or if he was looking for info for a book or something, but i can see why he was willing to pay for the insight that you were able to provide. There's very little information on the subject out there. There are books, pictures, documentaries, movies and of course the "b" movie kind as well, but alot of that stuff is pretty basic and there's limited material. Some of the documentaries are pretty good, but usually the best that you can get is a small glimpse of what life is like inside. They don't let cameras freely take pictures or videos or record sounds. So for someone like your friend or myself where else can we go for a feel of what life is really like for a lady in prison than to a woman such as yourself. I've even tried writing to female inmates through some of the penpal websites online, and most of the women that i corresponded with were for the most part very nice, but it never seemed to work out. These poor ladies were in the middle of serving time and to them I'm sure the last thing that they wanted to share in thier letters is more stuff about prison. You know, I'd start off my opening letter telling her basically what I just told you because I wanted to be up front and honest. I wasn't looking for a girlfriend or a wife. But it always seemed to get around to money or a sex letter. Things like that. And I understood that too. I knew that many of the girls made money off guys doing that stuff and I can see why they would. The thing is, women who were in the mist of it wouldn't or probably couldn't share. And it's easy to see why.

You must think that I'm some kind of nut. But really, I'm not. I'm just a middle aged , divorced, single parent guy that just has this fetish thing, and the thing just happens not to be shoes. But seriously I don't want you to think that i'm sadistic or anything because I'm not. I don't like seeing girls or women being abused or hurt in any way. Infact when I think of my prison fantasy it's more like the self assured thriving rising to to top of the food chain tuff girl. Honestly this is something I've very seldom talked about with anyone and why I'm drawn to this I really don't know, but I always have been. You're probably wondering why I'm telling you all this. I don't know that either. Maybe I feel like you're some sort of expert. Maybe you can help me understand. Maybe you'll be interested and write me back and let me here what it is that you know. I can't offer you money as your friend did. That he was able to help you is awesome. I'd do the same if i could, but my resposiblities would make that impossible. And please know that I truely mean it when i say that i'm glad your friend could help you. In reading your blog spots i see that you had been sick and we all need someones help in our lives from time to time.

Really Tammi I'm not a crazy guy or anything like that . And I don't have anything to offer other than friendship. But if you ever feel the need to talk about your life inside please let me know. If that's not something you like to talk about anymore or if your just not interested in any of this I totaly understand and respect that. But if you are interested I'll play by your rules. I hope this email wasn't in any way out of line, but you seem so cool in all your writings that I felt that I could write you without you getting mad.

Please know that I wrote this email to you with nothing but respect for you.

Blog 3/13/2006 was one of the coolest things i've ever read.

Hope to here back from you,

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