Texas Tammi

I'm back.I went AWOL for a few days,OHHHHH THE JOY OF FREEDOM I HAD FOR THOSE FEW DAYS! I felt like a bird let out of it's cage.In that short time I made some decisions on what to do to get back to the old ME,and not the secluded,can't have friends,or even visit family members...and the list goes on and on.But I planned on moving back to Tyler w/ Rayven,and in the few days that she didn't call me,I find out that she left with a guy to go to Dallas...Well the house the other guy got her is out of the question ,I'm sure(He's NO angel himself! He's married,but rented her place).THAT part ,I didn't agree with! But I just thought that we could go ahead and do like we talked about and move in w/ her and split bills,which we agreed would help BOTH of us.Well....plan "A" is out the door.Her married man caught her with another guy.Soooo.....so much for that idea.Rayven is dancing in Dallas now.....Everyone is blaming me,for her being raised by a mother that danced too~I pleaded and begged her not to do this,because it's a whole different kind of lifestyle that nobody would understand unless they have stood on that stage and had those men walk up to you and give you money without laying one finger on you(or they get escorted out).That's the type of place I worked at.But when she was in Tyler she was working at a place called Teasers. I hear it's definately not a safe place!Too much B.S. is allowed ppl say. I'm NOT saying that what I done was right....but at least I chose to work at a place that,if the owners or bouncers saw any touchy-feely stuff,they were right on top of it,and the guy would be banned and the dancer would be fired.This place Teasers is like "anything goes"and I hate it ...
Anyways....now I may be forced to go w/ plan B...but living w/ my Mom is NOT something I'm looking forward to doing,but......Somtimes U gotta grin and bear it,AND KEEP GOING.
Now for some good news!!! I got the sweetest lttle kitten!! She's just so precious!!! And SOOOOOOO playfuL!... Too-da-loo,
Until my next dramatic event! lol