New Day....Different Ray!?

UN-FRIGGIN-BELIEVABLE!! Ray's been acting so sweet that it's almost scarey! I had already made my mind up to break up w/ him when he chewed my ass out for not being home when he got home.I mean....enough is enough...I felt that that was the FINAL straw!With a broken neck and arm I can't drive...plus my sisters husband (Gerald)couldn't make the 2 hour drive at that time....Geald was working and couldn't carry me home until he got off wk.Anyways,Ray COULD HAVE picked me up on his way home.Even though it's a tad out of the way,he STILL could have saved my sisters' husband a trip.Sooooo,I had my heart set on either him leaving or me....and I didn't think that there was anything left to discuss.In my books it was over.Stupid me.He's still here,and acting like Mr. Perfect.He begged me to give him one more chance,and so here we are! It's only gona be a matter of weeks or even days before he's back to his usual crazy accusations,and just downright hateful,or even worse he'll go back to us playing the quite game.O.K.,I'm trying to believe him "THIS TIME"....but it's always the same O' same O'...so I guess only time will tell.I think maybe some sort of light bulb went off in my head at my sisters house.She didn't bow down and treat me like a queen....she didn't nag me about my dumb decisions in life I've made recently...she just bygot treated me "normal" like a decent human being w/ a heart,and not just like apiece of furniture.I love my sister.I tell her so,but I wonder if she really knows what she means to me.Hmmmmmm.....that makes me think.....maybe I can find something special to do or give her to show her what she means to me.She seems to be the ONLY peson in thid wp
I KNOW I'm no angel,that's for sure.Sometimes I think to myself "I wouldn't want to be the person that had to live with ME"...lol...but if I'm not what he wants,and we don't mesh,then why in the hell won't he just GO.I used to imagine him being w/ another woman and it really mentally got to me,big-time.But NOW I just wish he would find someone else....it doesn't intimidate me one single bit.More power to the poor woman that has to endure his evil ways.He's just one big roller coaster ride,and to be honest...me too sometimes....so I figure two ppl like that just can't hang.