ENOUGH IS ENOUGH !!

LIFE HAS BEEN MAKING SOME STRANGE TWISTS AND TURNS!! Well MY GOSH!! SOOOOOOO Friggin much has happened,I don't even knoW where to start!!!! gOT MY BAG OFF ON WEDNESDAY....SOOOO SINCE MY SIS CAN'T GET UP BEFORE 8 OR 9 AM DUE TO HER PSHCHE MEDS ,i HAD TO SPEND tUES NITE SO THAT HER OLD MAN WOULD CARRY ME TO THE UROLOGIST.all day affair.sOOOO....INSTEAD OF DRIVING ME HOME 2 HOURS AWAY ON wED...i DECIDED TO STAY THE NITE AND GO FOR MORE sreious TEST ON MY (close to paralazation neck)! sO rAY WAS WORKING MILES AWAY IN TEXERKANA AND GOT THE major ass cuz i WASN'T HOME,,,,ASSUMING MY SISTER AND i WERE LIVIN IT UP!! not!!!NO WAY....she's all the way Christian,plus my medical was more imortant to her.So Ray has the bi-time piss-off cuz I chose not to have someone drive me home knowing I had tests the NEXT day! BUT!!!! AFTER I have been thinking after all this time that if I excercise my neck it would get better! BIG-NO NO acccording to doctor Renfro.He said that was the BIGGEST MISTAKE VA PRSON CAN DARE MAKE! The reason for the uncomfortable brace that holds my head straight so I can't look anyways but straight and EVEN...is because the bones are "TRYING" to fuse back together WITHOUT being paralized,dumbass me and my excercise moves!! The SUCKKY PART OF IT ALLL...is Ray says I "COULD have stayed at home on Thurs and Fri. while he is working out of town.NOW YOU tell me????? HOW IN THE FUCK WOULD I HAVE KNOWN THE TERRIBLE DAMAGE I WAS CAUSING MYSELF?? AND OBVIOUSLY RAY DIDN"T CARE AS LKONG AS IU SAT IN MY DUNGEON TILL HE GOT BACK! THat SELKFISH NO GOOD BASTARD.Are u tired of my bitching?? ME TOO! Time to make some changes,I'm out of here !Since he refuses to hit the asphalt I will.The few days w/ my sistter opened my eyes to such joy and happiness! Call it CRUEL if you want.But he only like 2 more weeks of lawyer and bailbonds payments and he can get the F'K on the hi-way.I know he loves me,,,,,he knows I love him....but it's NOT ENOUGH to live like this anymore.I've NEVER BEEN SO UNHAPPY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE EXCEPT FOR CHILDBIRTH AND PRISON,and I'd gladly do both of those again to get out of this hell!
THe time has come.He ghas made comments about how wonderful life would be,drinkin' and runnin' hoes! Well C'mon with it.Not one tear will fall from this eye! NOT even a fake one!Will keep u informed of my move if anyone is interested.FEEDBACK WOULD BE SOOOOO GREATLY appreciated.and ohhhhh noooo...I'm no PERFECT angel....I got some crappy faults too....so I can handle any critisism dished out.
THanks for letting me rant and rave,,,,,,alot more has took place....but this has become long enough!
lotsa love to those who truly care! And I'm here 4 you too!!!!
T.