I'M BACK

Hello all.....Thurs. the 21st...my aunt Merrille and U. pedo's,myself,plus my uncle Pedo's friend Moosey went to california to my 39 year old cousin Danny's funeral. 2 and 1/2 weeks prior to that,Danny's fiance (Tracy) was at a bridal shop trying on wedding dresses cuz her and were gona get married soon....so Tracy rushed back to Danny's house and took him to the the hospital where for 2 weeks the ran bunches of testsand found that he was just literally riddled w/ cancer ALL in his stomach and wrapped around his liver.Chemo was definately NOT an OPTION b/c it would stir up the cancer and shorten his life or even kill him,so he was given 2-6 months too live. spot,well....Danny DEMANDED that he die go home and NOT die there in the hospital....so they sent him home thru Hospice.His first day home he had a 2 hour conversation` with Caleb (Danny's 10 year old).Caleb layed up in the bed beside him and explained as best he could (I would imagine) that he wouldn't be able to make it much longer because of the cancer, etc.....Sad huh,for a 39 year old?? Unfortunately the next day Danny was incoherant and things started shutting down from what I understand....so he made it a total of 2 and 1/2 days at home and died.Danny being Aunt Merrille and U. Pedo's ONLY son.....they took it pretty hard. While I was in California trying to help keep A. Merrille from giving hreself another heart atttack or stroke (like she's had in the past)she even died 3 times,(cardiac arrest in the past) so I REALLY had to try to keep her as calm as possible.I took the majority of all the pics as nobody else brought a camera or camcorder so I had to take pics of the viewing of the body,the funeral,and celebration....and that really wasn't something that was very easy to do....I'd ALWAYS wanted to see California,but it's a shame I finally got to see Cali,but I sure wish I could have went under different circumstances. In the meantime,back in Abilene Texas....Ray's Dad went bk in the hospital..and in a few short days he also died of cancer,so we got back from California yesterday afternoon and am getting ready today to go tomorrow to Abilene to be w/ family and get things together for the funeral.What a sad few weeks!! Ray really was close to his dad!!! But anyways...I'm gona go for now I have tons of things to be doing.Just thought I would drop in,do a little blogging to get a few things off my chest ....basically just alot of depression,ya know. Hugs TO ALLL!! TAMMI