FUNERAL #2 BACK AGAIN

Seems as tho I've been gone a month,but I haven't.Just been on the road mostly or spending time w/ family members and friends of Ray's father.Cecil died recently and we just got back from spending a few days in Abilene,Tx. going to the wake,and funeral,and doing the celebration stuff with family and friends.It sure pulled down funds,but who cares....it was necessary.Ray and his Dad were so close,it was just sad to see all the people that loved him,but yet the thing most people admitted,was that at least Cecil won't be doing anymore suffering.

I just returned from California when I had to go to Abilene,so this is really my first day home to straighten out some things.I need to get another job---big time.But WHERE? I live so far out in the country....and the next closest town has NOTHING there.I'll have to do a looooong commute to a big city or move.

Ray and I argued the very minute I stepped out of the van when I got bk from Cali,and we agreed to go our seperate ways....then he starts crying about his Dad,and that they were pulling the plug that day.....so I chose to stick it out with him thru the funeral...but things have got to change....and I mean in a drastic way,or I just can't handle this knit-picking and argueing etc....But I sure couldn't go the day that I started packing,cuz he cried that his Dad is gona be gone and me too.....that sure got my heart strings big time.I mean....I understand there has been alot of stress w/ his father dieing and all.....but the mess w/ Ray and I started way before his Dad came down sick so badly.

Anyways.....only time will tell I suppose.

It's cold in Texas! I wonder if it's cold everywhere in the U.S.?Burrrrr!!!