Bummed!

I want to go to see my Dad n Mom.I knew before I started this job I should have went to Houston to see him & Mom.My step-mom is the coolest.In fact the word step-mom sounds so fairytale & neagative.But she's nowhere near like the fairytale w/ the wicked stepmom...she's the exact opposite!She's been in our lives...married to Daddy since I was 3 years old,and is the most adoreable person I know & love dearly...and I haven't got to see her or my Daddy in so long its driving me nuts.When I get a a day off now...its exactly that.A DAY off.Not a weekend...or 2 days....but one day a week(if that),and I miss them so much.Not to mention daddy has a heart condition.He SAYS he's fine,but I know anything could happen....and I hate to think negative,but ...well...I'm just feeling down & out today.I miss them.I miss still being able to plop down in my Daddy's lap,even as old as I am...and my Mom who looks like she's 20 years younger than she is,and I can't remember her ever raising her voice in anger.She always cooks something she KNOWS I love.I soooo miss the days when I could just jump in the car & drive to Houston & spend the weekend,swim and lay in the pool in the daytime and just hang w/ my parents all weekend and just drive home & go back to work.
   I'm just so bummed out today thinking about how I SHOULD have got my ass down there before I started back working so many hours.
   I guess what really got me so out of pocket maybe is...yesterday my daughter came by and the first thing she said when she walked in the door is "Mom how do u keep the house so clean?It smells exactly like Gran & Paw-Paws house"?
  To me....that was a total compliment.Everytime I go to see my parents,I love it the minute I walk in the door.It smells and feels so awesome to just be there.Their house(to me) always smells like a mixture of vanilla,or potpouri and....I don't know...can't explain it...like a new smell.That familiar smell hits me sometimes when I go in certain stores in the mall,and I catch myself felling so homesick...I guess that sounds wierd...but my sense of smell seems to alter my mood sometimes.
  So when my daughter said that I took it as a major compliment...and I've been missing them worse than ever since she said that.Tried to call,but when I left a message yesterday& they haven't returned my call.Thats usually cuz their out of town.Dads cell went to voice mail,so their prolly up the country(our way of saying around the outskirts of Austin)...no cell signal range maybe,cuz when I call & leave a message,they always call me right back.
  Anyways...I think I'll try to call them again.Just miss them and wish I could just jump in the car & go see them right now.Tired of just talking to them via Ma-Bell.I wanna see em'.
   Bummed.