Sunday, December 27, 2009

HEADED TO PRISON TOMORROW!!




I'm so happy I got to spend Christmas w/ my family!!
    Well,on a down-swing...Today is my last day in the freeworld for 9 months to 2 years,and I'm going nuts thinking about those cuffs being put on me in court.But its reality.My hopes for probation have been shot down by too many people/lawyers that know the Judge,and know she uses past offenses,even if it WAS 1992,1993...just wayyy back when I was a wild child.No violence,just hot checks(my own acct)..STILL considered theft.I GET that...but the thing is,when my lawyer didn't give me my Oct.Court date,that was a bad mark on me.THEN,I just HAD to open my big mouth and tell my lawyer what a ding-dong he was for not doing his job.THAT sealed my coffin."Some things are better left unsaid"
  On a lighter note!! My blog will be updated by LETTI ...my bestest blogger buddy and more especially the best friend I've had for a really long time.In fact,she prettied-up my blog page! It's such a relief to know that at least I won't be "out-of-site-out-of-mind",thanks to Letti...even though she has the most precious baby boy she not-so-recently gave birth to...so asking her to do this was hard to do b/c I KNOW she has her hands full w/ baby Jaxon(and hubby of course..lol)..but she emailed me back and said she would "gladly" do it,and was already gona ask ME if I wanted her to update my blog.Post new addresses,in case I'm moved to a different prison..and most importantly posting my prison number.Once your in prison,your mail will follow u to any unit u are moved to.But jail-mail gets returned to sender,if I'm not there,and have already been sent up the river.
  I have been up 2 my ears packing away important stuff,so my important things like my baby books,and baby pictures,memorable things that can't be replaced...I won't get probation and my family knows this...so the phone has rung non-stop.I can't even get through a conversation w/ my daughter without her breaking down crying.Just so glad to be w/ Rayven,AJ and ALL of my family for Christmas!!
This is the jail I will be in for a few months.Maybe 2 months or so: Tamara OOPS!...    206 E. Elm St... Tyler,Tx...75702
 Then I'll be sent to a prison unit somewhere here in Tx.and it would be SOOOO nice to have someone send me a short note to say hi...or correspond with.But just so you know,and my faves list KNOW that I'm no violent/crazy criminal.This $18 Walmart petty theft was a misdemeanor enhanced 2 a felony since I had a theft by check(WAY back in 1992) and another in 1994...but this recent Walmart thing makes 3...and 3 makes a felony.And a felony leads to lock-up,if probation is not an option.And its not,for me unfortunately.
The worste thing that hurt me,was I made my lawyer REALLY mad.So he's hoping the Judge throws the book at me,I'm sure.So..."it is,what it is"....I wanna say this one quick important thing before I close.Thanks for all your prayers and I have really appreciated all of my blog-buds.I've made some really strong friendships through blogspot...and I want you to know how much I adore you.Thanks for not pre-judging me,and accepting me for who I am.Mistakes,faults,short comings and ALL...it really means alot.
If u write me,I assure you,I will write you back.It gets so lonely in there.So your mail and your prayers mean more to me than you could EVER imagine.
Sincerely
Tamara OOOPS
EDIT: ALMOST FORGOT.PLEASE FORGIVE ME IF I HAVEN'T BEEN BY YOUR BLOG.ITS BEEN CRAZY THE LAST FEW WEEKS,JUST GETTING THINGS IN ORDER FOR LOCKUP,SO I'M SORRY IF I'VE BEEN MISSING IN ACTION.                              

5 comments:

Bill said...

You know I will write to you sweetie. I would come to see you but I woke up sick Christmas morning and still running fever and sinus probs sore throat etc. I really wanted to see you but guess i will have to visit you in jail. Call me if you do get probation and if you don't call I will know to start the letter writing process. If there is anything I can help you with from here you let me know. I do care about you very much and hope and pray nothing but the best for you sweetie.

Daisy said...

Oh Tammi~ I am SO sorry to hear this sad news. I promise I will write.

Walker said...

I will write but I rather you didn't go to bloody jail for something this small.
If they do put you in then all i have to say is there is no hope for the system in Texas or is it the governer's office.
You know, the guy that executes innocent people and then gets rid of the employees that can prove he uses the law to murder innocent people.

tweetey30 said...

How many kids do you have Tammi?? I know you mention kids when you talk about them so I am just wondering.. Glad to knowyou arentn going away though...Hope you have a great New Years...

Tamara said...

Tweety30--
You sure notice ALL details don't cha?
It would take me sending u an email or a REALLY long post to explain.But..in short,Kalon(my youngest is in jail sitting out $4,539 worth of tickets.There is no bond.Meaning someone would have to pay that FULL sum to get her released...so all I can do is bring money orders and visit her.She and I have a complicated relationship,and its one of those things that's wayyy to painful to talk about.
Her Grandma petioned for temorary custody when Kalon was 4 and once I got to court and the Judge looked at my record and found out I was a dancer back then,that had just changed resdences...the Judge granted my ex-husbans' Grandmother FULL custody.Till Kalon turned 12 and wanted to be w/ me,even after G'ma told Kalon I was a lowdown sorry criminal and whore...Kalon's visits w/ Rayven and I gave Kalon a whole different picture than what she TRYED to force Kalonto believe.
I DO speak of Rayven & A'million alot more than I talk about Kalon,and I guess that's because Kalon has alot of resentments,after years of G'ma telling Kalon I NEVER wanted her.
See,its even a much longer story than this....but just a little insight might help you understand.Rayven has never left my side since she was born,even when I was in prison,she was brought to see me(even tho I HATED her seeing me there)..Daddy felt that she needed to see me,and begged him to let her see me.Kalon,on the other hand,I guess me going away confirmed everything G'ma put me down about...This is turning into a post,so I'll shut up.But just so u know the confusion about both girls.I wondered when someone would notice that.;-{
Hugggggs*