After many attempts to shoot out a decent/positive post,I've managed to fail over and over as it appears that my life is REALLY just DOOM and FUCKING GLOOM! I feel like I am back in the pen,with no way out but to simply hang myself.Unfortunately,being the bapbtist that I was brought up....I KNOW in my heart(others may disagree) but I feel that if I off myself that I would be damned to hell for eternity.
I feel so bad for thinking of how my kid's would feel if I were to do such a thing....but Maybe they would feel alot better knowing that if I died,at least THAT would be a SURE reason why she can't help us out anymore.
Before I get tons of hate mail or phsychologists telling me I shouldn't be alone,go seek the nearest medical attn that you can get to....NOW!
ha ha....noooooo,I'm not freaking so bad that the lil white truck needs to come take me away w/ and put me in a rubber survelience room.I'm not that far gone YET.
Just FED UP TODAY.
When I think things are gona go ONE way.....somethingt always seems to throw the mokey wrench up my ass!
Sunday, September 3, 2006
WHAT THE????
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OUCH!!!!!!!'
I felt that one.
Life is noty always a bed of roses I know first habd in more ways than you can possible imagine.
Or maybe you could BUT lets put th tools down (unless they have batteries) thow a manaquin off a roof to satisfy a compulsion and run downstairs to wait the emergency crew come to bring life to said dummy.
Or you could have a drink or two.....bottles and say FUCK IT!!!!
Then go get laid.
That might make you feel good.
It never does for me (I think you have to actually go out there to get laid)but thinking about it does :)
It all gets better trust me
i feel like that a lot of the time, life can get so mundane and things happen that you just want to end it all but nothing is ever that bad and thats why we're both still here...
i'm sure something exciting will happen soon
*hugs*
I was going to send you an email, but then read the rest of your post and decided not to in case I got told off lol
There are far too many people around in your world that love having YOU around in theirs. I am but only one of them.
Now behave yourself and pick up your lip. You know it might suck right now (and God only knows, it can feel like it's never going to stop sucking at times)...but that just makes the smallest unsucky thing shine out so much more.
Hang in there hun...I'd send you lots of sunshine and happy smiles from NZ, but the truth of the matter is...it's been bloody raining and cold and we're all miserable down here. You'll just have to imagine it, ok? lol
*big hugs*
Damn, not that I would help but I wish I lived a little closer. I think a night out on the town would help take you mind off of things even if it were just for a little while.
Tammi, I know things aren't looking to good to you but try and think of all you have to be thankfull for. I have never been married, I do not have any kids, I am not seeing anyone at the time. The list goes on. Regardless of how things have went for you I think you have a lot to be thankfull for. Just think about it, will you please. You have a very caring heart and I just know that you would be so missed.
*hugs* to a cyber friend
WALKER*
You are so crazy.(laughing sooo hard)
So your the "let's just hit the sack--That'll fix it baaaaabbby"!!
Haven't tried it lately,so you may be right....a little tension reliever could do some good I'm sure.
MAGPIE*I'm still waiting on the excitement to just creep up and tap me on the shoulder....knowing me though,I'd prolly RUN LIKE HELL,not stopping.(double duhs)
LISA*Your just the sweetest friend,no-holes-barred,tell it like it is friend.That's so cool.I felt like you put your hands on both shoulders and shook the helll out of me,telling me "Hey! Snap out of it lil Missy"!But God how you are SOOO right.There is usually a stopping point with the sucking....But the amount of suckage these days is neverending.......
BARMAN*Thanks Barman.I'd love to go have that drink with you sometime.I bet I'd forget all the stupid shit going on around here,and since I don't drink that often...I'm sure I'd wake up w/ a headache.But your such a cool guy,I'd bet it would be worth a headache or two.
:-}
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time right now. A good friend of mine insists that I chant "it WILL get better" when things are bad for me, and you know what? It works - and helps. Sending all the "get better" vibes I can spare. Take care and laugh in adversity's face because it can't beat you.
hey... we all get fed up!! I understand, at one low point in my life I tried to blow my head off. That crap solves nothing, I say
"live to fight another day"
Never give up girl!!
Props to all you lovely ....Slap ADOREABLE chaps that know how to say "FuuuuCK IT"! and move right on.However I tend to wallow in the freakin self pity,feeling like I'm in a closed in on a see through elevator that happens to be stuck on floor number whatever the fuck...and is not going up ....and bygod NOT going down.I have several people below telling me 10 different things to get off that FUCKED up elevator,but everytime I do something I jam my ass even more(oh snap,that sounded too kinky)....but u know what I'm getting at.
So are there any freakin elevator repair men or women that can get me down from this contraption I've stuck myself in.
Even the sweet,sweet friend that has came to my rescue over things,and I swear if I told you about that helping hand,you'd freak....so I guess I'll have to be a bitch and leave u hanging for his adoreably sweet anynymoty(sp).
He handed me the world on a silver plater,and I even ate the complimentary
rose.Is that sick or what?
"REEEEROO_RERERRRRooo...is that the luney bin I hear coming?Wouldn't doubt it a bit.They're coming to take me away(HA HA) there coming to take me away (hee hee) to the funny farm.....blah blah blah..
DAMN! NO SUCH LUCK.That must've have been on TV.I couldn't get so lucky.
Hey Tammi, aren't you back to work? How is that going? I hope you are doing a little better now.
Hey, if it helps, you brighten my day when I see you posted something. Depressed or happy it is always nice when you are around.
Saying fuckit doesn't mean forget it.
It means I'll live with it but won't forget either.
Listen.......I have a secret for you but you can't tell anyone...
The sane people are in the looney bin.
That's why they get the best drugs. "Wink"
Take care of yourself :)
Wow, has it really been 5 whole days since I checked in here? Must have been.
Sorry I wasn't here with a kind word when you needed it most, but it's good to hear that you're feeling a little better.
"Suckage"? Ok, young lady, you've had quite enough suckage for one evening. I'm cutting you off...
Ah, if it were only that easy.
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