STUCK STUCK STUCK

Well,it seems as tho I am still stuck in a very awkward situation.My plan was to get my car this last week and move,but the loan that I thought I could put off for another few weeks came back and bit me in the ass.If I were an A-hole,I could have said "to heck w/ it" and got my car anyways...but being that it is a loan that I put my car title up for and so did my uncle,I couldn't stand to think the bank would go get his truck for ME not paying.Obviously my own car that was also tied to the loan isn't an issue,b/c it was totalled when I tried to go around that deer....but my uncle was nice enough to help me in my time of need,so I had to pay that loan.
So unfortunately my plans have to be set back for a few days.I hope no longer than a few days tho,cuz I can barely get through the day without doing something terrible to him when he's talking to me like a dog.I just keep telling myself..."hang in there,Tammi,don't do anything drastic,cuz it's almost over".Sometimes it takes every bit of energy I have to keep my mouth SHUT.lol
My sister called me mad as xxxx because I won't just get my things and go to Mom's anyways....my daughter is really really mad too....I think they are really more worried than just mad.But I simply can't go to my Mom's w/ no way around.I HAVE to work,and it's NOT like my mother lives in the city limits where there is public transportation.So if I go there while I'm on foot,I'll go crazier than I am here!
But if it starts taking too much longer,I'm gona have to bail anyways.I called Daddy and asked him for a lousy $500 for a downpayment on a car(since I lost the Lumina I had my heart set on),and he starts in w/ this really long speech about how I should have left Ray a long time ago,and the usual "You made your bed,you lie IN IT"....hMMM,GOD KNOWS,IF THERE IS ANYTHING THAT I CAN DO FOR MY GIRLS,I WILL DO IT.WITHIN REASON,THAT IS....
wELL,ANYWAYS....i'M LIKE A CAT...THROW ME UP HIGH AS POSSIBLE,AND i WILL ALWAYS LAND ON MY FEET.HA HA HA