I'M IN SHOCK!!!!

OMIGOSH! I recently met someone that has really been a God-sent.
To me,this seems so wild,because most guys that I've known,often have some hidden motive for wanting to help you in some way.Not to say ALL men are this way,but there are men as well as women that offer to do something for you when your in distress,but they let you know real quick that there is a big price-tag along w/ that favor.
But recently I met someone online.He let me know real quick that he's married,so he's never even come close to propositioning me or anything...but he lives many many states away,and has become such a terrific online friend.Some people would like to think that most guys have a hidden motive for befriending another woman on the internet,and I have to admit,THAT'S what I tend to think sometimes(my bad,I know).I have never really exchanged emails w/ someone(a guy) that I didn't know w/ the exception of a person I met online that I met on a "computer help" type message board...this guy is a genius and has taught me so much since I bought my first computer.But I have just never been interested or took the time to lolly-gag w/ anyone on the net.Lack of extra time,maybe,not to mention the fact that since I've been to prison,I have met the most sweetest,honest looking people that have actually committed some of the scariest crimes you could imagine....so I can't help but be a little skiddish.I'm sure that there are so many ppl that would also be a little leary of someone,such as myself,that has spent time in the penetentiary...and that's okay,because even though my crime was a paper crime and didn't physically hurt anyone,it's only normal to cautius....cautus....darn,how do you spell that? Sounds like: CAW-SHUSS...??
But in the short time I have known this person,he has blown my mind.Since my car accident,it's been a struggle making ends meet.I did not mention that because I wanted sympathy or a handout or even a loan...I just tend to yakk about whatever comes to mind.And it seems like I have to rob Peter to pay Paul.lol
The next thing I know,I get an email that says that if I had an address that was not my own,or simply a place for me to recieve money that he would be happy to help.Of course,I never figured him to be a nut or anything,but it's always better to be safe and never reveal your address or personal info.I have a sister that gives her phone number and things out alot and that is her business,but there are some people out there that prey on innocent ppl and children and have nothing but harm on their mind,and that's pretty scarey,to me.But I don't get the feeling that this guy is that way,but I won't bet the farm on it.Not because he's said anything wierd,but I think it's okay to be on guard if you don't know someone personally.
Okay,so I give him an address where I do not live and he shocks me when he sent $100 the first time,then sent $500(Fed-X) shortly afterwards,and then as if THAT wasn't a total shocker!! He then sends $1,000 to me via Fed-X!! I almost fell out.I had so many mixed emotions,because at first I thought,geez! I can't accept this! Didn't take long too shake that thought off.ha ha.Of course I needed it and wanted to keep it,but what was he thinking he would get in return? So I emailed him and let him know how much I appreciated it,but what was I supposed to do? Pay him back soon,maybe? And his response was so awesome.He said that I did not have to pay him back,but that he realized that sometimes ppl need a little help,and that from what I have mentioned (he's talking about my rambling emails) ha ha,he said that there may have been a lack of ppl in my life that are kind to me.He just simply wanted to be helpful.
Now isn't that awesome?I do know that there are ppl that can see when a person is really really trying to do the right thing,and things just don't seem to come together as fast as we would like them to.I do know that with hard work and the determination that I have,things will always work out in the long run....but it sure is nice to know that someone cares and just wants to be of some help if they are able to do so.
Which reminds me... I am going to try and volunteer to work at the Nursing Home here in the town, where the Katrina victims are going to be coming to.I'm not sure if I will qualify yet because of my criminal history,but I am hoping that they will see past that and see who "I" am,and not the mistakes I've made in my past.An idle mind is the devils workshop....I don't think I have much time for my mind to be idle(lol),but the devil sure does set up his friggin workshop in my head sometimes anyways.Gotta stay busy busy busy so I can lose some butt butt butt.Speaking of butts....whoever invented Milky Way's and Snickers oughta be ashamed of themselves...don't they know how hard it is staying on a slimfast fruit diet with chocolate like that around?
Anyways...I may complain that bills sometimes run me crazy,but there are alot of people that have it waaayyyy worse than me...Daily Confirmation today will be: today I won't have self-pity for what I don't have....I can always wish (giggle)...but I won't .....I'll "TRY" not to complain :-}