AWESOME NEWS!YIPPPEEE!

The beginning sounds sad,but keep reading so you can get to the GOOD part(smile)As most of u know,I have 2 beautiful daughters.I don't talk much about my youngest daughter Kalon as I have so many mixed emotions....guilt/anger at myself/feeling so responsible/alot of hurt/and too many tears to count for,for simply not being the mother that she deserved throughout her life.Other than my prison time I raised the oldest daughter,Rayven.Well,Kalon wound up back and forth between myself and her Grandmother(my X's family,that is).Well,one summer a few years ago Kalon went to her G'ma's for a few weeks in the summer as summer break was ending.Well,good ol' G'ma gave Kalon 2 credit cards and 14 year old Kalon the keys to her truck and told her to go shop for school clothes(alone).I won't defend Kalon b/c she knows she was terribly wrong taking her friends and spending a few days in G'ma's truck shopping like she won the lottery w/ the credit cards(w/ her so-called friends in towe)...one being Ray's daughter!Long story short,when Kalon was found,she was arrested,and G'ma decided that either Kalon go to a Christian girls home or get charges filed for unauthorized use of a motor vehicle and theft/forgery etc..Kalon begged me to hire a lawyer and get her out of this,but when I consulted one,I got a pretty negative response.So Kalon wound up going to a Girls Home on the coast.I finally got my FIRST phone call from lil Ms.Kalon and she is doing absolutely GREAT! The year she failed school,she decided to work her hiney off and catch up,so she will be graduating high school on time,in May,and has already been working w/ the paperwork on where she will go to college.Community at first,she says.She wants to be a counselor,and heaven knows she'll make a GREAT one!!:-}
We had such a long talk and I've been on cloud nine every since.She has a caseworker that I will have to go through to get visiits at first and possibly some parenting classes etc...and that is absolutely FINE w/ me! I intend to do what it takes to get time w/ my baby girl,but yet NOT interfere w/ the progress she has made.B/C at one point,she was doing the same exact things that I did when I was in my early teens and look what road it took me down.She has been living w/ a family that is (how do u spell it)? They belong to the 7th Day Adventice Church and Kalon is very active in church,and God knows how much I would love to just go grab her back up and bring her home w/ me,and of course I have family that basically says if I were any kind of mother I would GO GET HER NOWWW!It's NOT that I don't want to do that,either...but what is best for Kalon? Wherever Kalon is....all I want is a good life and a chance at a better future than I had.Does that make me such an evil person?She's happy.I've never heard her sound so good.How can I go and shake that up? If she came back here,her old drinking,smoking weed,cig's and all the other mess would stare her right back in the face again.Not good!
So....yes,I would love to have my baby back.....well,she's 16(lol)...but she's still my baby girl....but taking her back for one wouldn't be too smart,and 2 the state may have a problem w/ that idea too.
Wouldn't you know...I have a family full of lawyers,child case workers,judges,....you name it....(YEA RIGHT,THEY WISH) btw.ha ha