Someone asked me a question that I wondered if anybody ever wondered why I use the expression so much(it's even on my Kia's back windshield w/ a little angel) "NOT PERFECT,BUT FORGIVEN"
I replied to his e-mail,and after so much indepth thought on the matter,I thought I would copy and paste it here,in case anyone else wonders why that statement means so much to me.Here's my reply to Jody.
"Cool.Your the 1st person to ever ask me that.I have made some really terrible choices in life,Jody.When push comes to shove,it's thrown up in my face.But even though "I" know I have never been a perfect angel,nor will I ever be...I know that my Higher Power has seen deep in my heart and seen the regret,the remorse,the guilt,and the Lord KNOWS the pain I have endured just because of some stupid mistakes....so HE knows,if nobody else in the world ever forgives me,my Higher Power does.I'm no bible thumper,in fact,I don't even go to church.But me and my God have a good understanding.I've learned alot,and what I mostly learned is that every single thing that I've done wrong,has made me the strong individual that I am today.That doesn't mean that I don't still pout,moan-n-groan,bitch,and throw tantrums.lol.....but I'm strong enuff to just say "NO".The state penetentiary taught me that two letter word.
I've taken my screw ups out into the public and aired that dirty laundry to the SAME prison I was released from.The Constable that busted me on several occasions...him and I did alot of public speaking to schools...Kiwanis,Rotary Clubs,Juvenile.....matter-of-fact,same Juvenile I began my life of crime,even the same Jr. High.That's a feeling I can't describe,looking at some of those kid's and seeing and hearing them talk,I seen myself in them......anyways...I could rattle on and on,but I won't take up anymore of your time.
But,I know I'll never be perfect.Never was...never will be,but PTL I have a God that forgives.Alot of my family/friends say they'll forget the old Tammi.....but I don't blame them for being somewhat leary......but the only thing I can do is walk the walk,and let time heal all the wounds.More especially where my 2 beautiful daughters' are concerned.
Thanks for asking.
Take Care,
Tammi
Saturday, April 2, 2005
"NOT PERFECT,BUT FORGIVEN"
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2 comments:
hi there. I think it's wonderful that although there have been some really unfortunate events in your life, that you are so strong and turning things to your advantage now :) Congratulations and what an inspiration!
Hi Tammi
I too have made some major mistakes in my lifetime but I dont regret them because if I hadnt made them I wouldnt be who I am today. I have alot to be grateful for and I truely am every day. I dont think anyone is perfect because we cant actually define and agree on what it is. Great entry. Hugs
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