Paniced Too Soon!

Whew! That threw me into a state of panic.I depend on my blog to dump my thoughts,otherwise I think my head would just be crowded with too much useless information,not to mention the worries and stress of everyday life....or even just to be able to blog the good days and certain events is pretty cool in my books.Personally,I like the feedback that I get sometimes when I'm needing another person's point of view,as sometimes I'm so close to the situation,I can't see things like others' can.
I rented "Little Black Book"(I just love Britney Murphy), and "Monster" (w/ Charlize Theron).Sounds like a spooky movie,but it's not.Well...spooky as in "Friday the 13th" or movies like that...but "Monster" is the true story about Eillene Werner(I think I spelled that right).She was a serial killer that killed alot of her tricks.That reminds me....no wonder I have nightmares,huh? I read true books,and watch these kinds of movies....chances are...that "could" be a reason for my dreams.But why do they always have to be nightmares about prison.Maybe there is some connection there..who knows.
I think I want to have this Aol Voicemail canned.Dang,it seems like nobody ever calls me until I get online...and up pops the little box.So usually I wind up clicking on "Sign Off and Accept Call",totally squashing whatever project I'm on.Sometimes I click on "Call Back Later",or "I'll Call You"....but not often.
I wonder how that spam got into my comment section of one of my posts?Is there a way to prevent that I wonder?Hmm...
Okay,this may sound pathetic and terribly conceited...but Damn! I used to LOVE my figure!! Always a flat stomach,heart shaped rear,5"6,110-115 lbs.....so what the hell is happening? I'm gaining weight since my car wreck....well....I was gaining BEFORE my wreck...but NOW I'm REALLY spreading out.Ohhh,how I miss those days of gawking at myself in the mirror and making guys turn their heads w/ my cute little outfits.NOW I hate to even look down in the shower!! It's starting to scare the hell out of me! lol ...and I "think" about making an effort to lose some weight,but I never follow through with any diet I start.I start out going strong,then shortly thereafter I'm back to my "Ms.Piggy" self!
Ya know(I may have already blogged on this subject,not sure)....Anyways,I had a guy give me a compliment the other day...he said "I bet ppl always tell you that you look like Marylyn Monroe",and I thought....how sweet! And YES,my next thought was...he's probably just looking for a quick piece of ass.lol....But when I told Ray, he said the same thing(that the guy just wants booty)...it pissed me off.It was as if Ray was saying "No,you don't look like Marilyn,or no your not that pretty,the guy just wanted in your pants"! OKAY!! Even though it's hard for me to take a compliment since I've packed on a few pounds....did Ray REALLY have to put me down like that?Gosh,he can be such a jerk sometimes.And for his information...bygosh,it's NOT the first time I've heard that.I'm pretty sure it's JUST my hair color....but I have heard on many occasions that I either look like Marilyn,Madonna,or Gwen Stefanie.And it's NOT like I've heard it from one person,either throughout the years.But yet and still....I DO think it's just my hair that ppl connect me w/ them in the looks department...because I think Gwen Stefanie is knockout gorgeous,and there is NO WAY in hell I could ever look like her.People on the net have said it TOO,I told Ray....so does this mean that ppl on the internet are thinking about flying cross-country to get a piece of ass,by saying I look like her?His reply was "Yes".....Geez,is there any hope?
On that note.....I think I'll go heat up some pizza so I can add another 10 pounds on this already big-ass.All this talk about overeating is making me hungry!lol