NEVER GO TO SLEEP EATING WHILE ON XANAX!

NOBODY'S gona believe what I done last night! I was so stressed out w/ running around town w/ 3 teenagers that had over $1,000 a piece (looking for a car to pay down on),that by the time I got home,I took 2 Xanax's so that I could get a decent nights rest (w/ all the commotion they probably weren't even needed...lol) Nevertheless......I wake up in the middle of the night w/ icecream and whip-cream ALL IN MY HAIR,in the front (which is HARD as a rock now) ,and the bowl spilled on my beautiful friggin' comfortor!! Damn! Xanax......that's a powerful pill(or should I say powerful (2) PILLS) lol. But WAIT!!!! Have I invented a new kind of hairspray? It certainly would make a terrific freeze spray! Provided you are equipped w/ a REALLY REALLY good conditioner to get it out! It actually feels like I sprayed a ton of freeze spray on my hair and then got caught out in the rain w/ no umbrella.hee hee
Seriously though,I have to be verrrrry careful w/ mind altering substances due to my criminal/penetentiary past.But I was always an "upper' kind of person.Methamphetamines,Vicodans.....etc.....and YES,Vicodans had an adverse affect on my crazy system.Most ppl that took them for various reasons(dental,medical,etc..)well...they itched like crazy and wanted to sleep.ME??? They wired me up like a line or shot of meth.I took those "Vico-monstors" for so long, a while back(before prison,that is)...my body became so physically addicted to those pills, that honest to God,I felt like I had 3 cases of the flu at one time when I would run out of Vic's!! You could literally SEE the nerves jump in my arms and legs....and the PAIN was UNBEARABLE!!!I just begged for death to come,but too scared to kill myself(thinking I would surely go to hell)Soooo... To support my habit,I did CRAZY shit,like have my sister run over my hand in the car,so it would crush it,and then surely the doctor would give me my much needed med's.(or much WANTED),Unfortunately kids....never try this at home,cuz ALL it did was leave tire marks!!But man O' man,the withdrawals felt like as if someone was pulling my bones OUT from under my skin.(dang I just got a chill thinking about those days!) UuuGH!But as far as Xanax....not to worry...downers were never my thing!(thank goodness)...cuz that's all I need...another addiction after fighting the Vicodan monkey off my back! As a matter-of-fact....I can get Xanax's from my doctor's anytime,at 100 pills at a time,but I don't do it.I just keep a few for nights that I'm too revved up to sleep,and I KNOW I have to get up early.It's sure funny to hear all the excuses ppl have to talk me out of a script.It's like they sound JUST like me doing my manipulation games to get Vicodans back in those days.Funny how one fiene(sp) can spot another fiene,huh? ha ha Even at a gas station...I see them all the time.Most "clean",non-addicts sometimes can't see it....but I DO! I can spot em' a mile away.But, no matter what $$ I'm offered,my conscience can't allow myself to contribute to someone else's "high",cuz you KNOW they won't take em' as prescribed.And (2)...what if the person O.D.'d on MY med?? I shudder at the thought.
Anyways....ADDICTION! Grrrrreat way to start the day,huh? ha ha.Gotta go to the bank when it opens,cuz if I don't get this $$ in the bank,I'll find a sale SOMEWHERE....and my goal is to get my Prelude in driving condition since my KIA is in the KIA graveyard!! I felt like I should have held a KIA death ceremony since I invested so much into the car (rims,the boom...music,that is) and various other things I did to jazz up my baby.This time.....F'xxx it!!! I'm just gona make the Prelude driveable,or hopefully find a mid-size truck.ha ha Somebody made the comment that I should put a .....I think he said "grater" on the front?? I know what he was referring to....a metal-type guard on the front so if I run into anything....no biggy! lol...DAMN,next time I "WILL" HIT that F'ing deer! I don't care if it's BAMBI! It's going dowwwn!! lol
Headed on over to check my bud Cary's blog and Chez's(Misguided Affections),and maybe nose into a few other favorite blogs.Ohh...Cary...if u just happen to be reading my blog...can u turn your name and Chez's into a link!? I'll be your "best friend"....ha ha Purrrrty Plzzzz (grinning).You just have to teach me how to do that so I don't have to bug ya! (smile)
I'll end on my favorite quote in the world...."Not Perfect.....But Forgiven"...
Have a good day to anybody that accidently stumbled across my ranting ,raving,and crazy opinions!