CHANGE SUCKS!

Ray left at 5 a.m. Monday morning to work out of town.He hasn't even bothered to call,and took most of his clothes.Sounds like the end to me,and it's just that he don't have the balls to say so.He's worked out of town before,and ALWAYS calls 2 and 3 times a day to make sure I am at work or home.I'm friggin more pissed that he can't even call and say "F-YOU" or "LATER"!! I don't even feel like crying,oddly enough....I'm just sick of this waiting game he's got me playing...It's OLD,and I mean REALLY OLD!
Bigger fish in the sea.More responsible ones,I hope!Anyways...I refuse to take up any time and space tonight blogging about Ray.What's the point? It's down to the nitty-gritty.Time to move on........but in all honesty....CHANGE SUCKS.It's hard for me to go out on dates(like I did the 3 months we seperated)...I had a BAD habit of comparing everyone to Ray.One of my dates,I got so disgusted...we were at the lake,and I had one of those thick silver floats(the mattress type)and I asked him would he help me blow it up,and the guy I was with said "shoot no! I'm not blowing that big-ass float up".I was like a pressure cooker that blew...and yelled at this poor guy telling him that every F'ing time I go to the lake Ray blew all the floats up! I called him a Big-O-Wussy!!!It's just crazy,cuz It's like Ray was so sweet at one time....key words"at one time"! What happened to that Ray?Maybe somebody elses is backdooring me....hell..she can come through the FRONT door for all I care.lol
Anyways....maybe I'll go out Friday night w/ my single best friend (who Ray despises)....he knows we have been friends since 2nd grade and we always have a blast when we go party.But for now....
Gona watch a movie and hit the hay.I'm off work tomorrow! Yahooo!