CONFRONTATION TIME!

So I ask Ray...."What in the hell is so gorgeous about skeliton looking women"? and all I get is this B.S. about "baby your body is perrrrfect"....when I KNOW in fact...IT'S NOT! So why lie about it? I've gained weight,so let's just be adults an admit the fact that my ass is alot larger than it USED to be!? I mean....good grief! My clothes don't lie when I try to pull those size 3 pants up to my hip and they won't go any further! I KNOW nobody traded clothes with me! So what's up with that? He can't even watch "Fear Factor" and notice themn eating spiders,because he's too busy saying "DAMN! Look at her 6-pack"......when all I see is them eating roaches and spiders!!

I really want OUT sometimes....but I feel sooooo stuck! I mean really STUCK! I think he does too,but I really think he's so co-dependent that he can't be in a room alone....muchless OUT THERE alone.I figure he'll eventually find some scrawny girl,like I USED to be when I danced,and then he'll lower the boom.I'll probably cry a day or two(maybe more)and then I'll go on.It's just that the days are running into years with this man.....and YEARS is something I don't have to squander.Hell...I'm in my 30's now,and I can't tell you how scarey the number 40 is to me,for some reason.....He laughs and says he'll trade me in for 2-20's,and do I think that's funny? NO! I don't! Since I'm medically off work,I'm going nuts and he knows it.Just wait till I go back to work! I might just make some big ass changes,and not just in my size!