Damien's Note: Everyone, be ready to feast your eyes. I got two letters from her within two days and there were lots of little posts in there for all of us. Keep in mind that, up until today, I've only read the letters and I plan on writing her back right after I post here. That's right, You've read correctly...this will be a first for me too. No filter, no editing (save for minor spelling corrections) and no B.S., all uncut, all raw. Happy to say that she's still keeping it upbeat and lively in true Tammi style. Read on! Dosvidanija, tovarisch!
7/29/11
Okay enough complaining about being back in Hope - Literacy. It's a "God Pod" and you don't get classes in a regular dorm like you do in here. So I'd rather be here learning something as opposed to being on another floor just doing dead time. Obviously, the chances of getting maced in here are a lot slimmer, so that's a plus! I'm just now starting to breathe right - That mace ain't no punk.
I was just thinking...I used to have the craziest nightmares while I was in the free world. I would actually wake my ex up screaming. I even blogged about it a few times. What's so weird is that it's like some things are coming true. I even had a recurring nightmare that I got locked up in a cell alone which actually happened when I went on medical chain to the Goree Unit in Huntsville. Weird huh?
8/1/11
I just want to publicly acknowledge the person putting my crazy rambling on my blog for me :-).
Thanks so much, Damien, for being such a good friend to me for so long. I have appreciated & cherished your words of wisdom, advice & feedback each time you gave it. And unlike some of my friends that seem like they've forgotten me (just cuz I made a mistake)I want you to know that it means a lot to me that you are still hanging in here with me (Huggs) "Ride or Die."
I went to see the psyche today to do a madatory evaluation and it's confirmed I'm still crazy. Kidding! Ha! But I honestly that I could have played the depression card and got put on a psych med like a lot of people do. But the thing is, since I abused Xanax and Vicodin in the world, I absolutely refuse to become dependent on any prescription medication. I've gone this long without anything and I feel great. Sure, this place is depressing. It's actually meant to be because it's meant to be punishment for people that break the law. I figure if I can handle this stress without crazy meds, then I can do anything. Change is beautiful because if nothing changes, nothing changes."
8/2/11
I'm thinking about cutting my hair off. It's past the middle of my back and it's like a big headache in here. I mean it's not like we have access to Paul Mitchell or Pantene in here. I wish. I'm just not too sure I wanna drop a form to go to the beauty shop because they only use clippers to cut your hair. No shears at all. What??? I've never used a pair of clippers to cut long hair. Never seen it donw so I think I'll pass. I have seen some haircuts done with fingernail clippers. It's a prison thing. Ha ha! I think I'll pass on that too. I think I'll just wait til I get out of here.
8/3/11
My really good friend is going home today. She's been locked up for a year and, even though I'm so happy to see her go home to her kids, I'll admit that I'm a little sad. Only because we've grown so close, I'll feel lost without her. She's about the only person I know with a sense of humor as warped as mine! Ha! We really have been trying to laugh our way through all this craziness but we've had our share of tears. So if you're reading this right now "Mama-K" - you keep being strong out there and doing the next right think and you'll never have to worry about coming back here. I miss ya already, ladybug!
They always say never get too close to anybody in prison because you didn't come with anybody and you won't leave with anybody but it's almost inevitable because you're around people literally 24 hours a day and well I've never been a "loner". I guess I probably should have been a few times in my life but I guess I'm just a people person and I cant do time without someone to B.S. with. That's why segregation almost drove me ding batty. Ha ha! Of course I don't make it a habit of associating with some of these convicts. I mena you can't take a lot of criminals (druggies, prostitutes, thieves, even mentally ill) people off the streets throw them all in a dorm and expect everyone to get along...just sayin'. But sometimes there are people in here that just don't seem to have that criminal mentality that others do. Even first time offenders that were stay-at-home mom, good wives, went to church and basically lived the Leave It To Beaver life that went out and broke the law and wound up here. Sad, but it happens. And then there are people out there breaking the law all the time and just don't get caught. Maybe they are just smarter than the rest of us (doubt it) or maybe they're just lucky.
Eventually that luck will run out though. It usually does. Hate to be the bearer of B-A-D news.
8/4/11
Today is commissary day and, as usual, people are swinging off the rafters, all hyped up an sugar and caffeine - so it's like, so loud in here. It's a total drag going through the whole process - waiting in a two-hour line, etc. But, of course, it's worth it because I buy a lot of stuff like Ramen soups and all kinds of crazy stuff to put in them (pickles, mayo, fritos, squeeze cheese) there are a lot of different ways to make a soup when you can't eat this nasty mess they try to feed you. On top of that TDC stopped feeding three meals a day on weekends. If it's not nasty, you eat at 6am and 6pm on Saturday and Sunday and please believe even though I'm not a big eater, my stomach has an affair with my backbone before lights our at 1am (10pm Monday through Friday). Anyways - So I'm stocked up until next store day (10 to 14 days unless we go on lockdown).
Speaking of lockdown. Seems as though one of the men's floors are all on lockdown. Yikes!. They've got caught with drugs - plus they all got U.A.s (urinalysis) and of course, a bunch of them came up dirty, so they all lose contact visits for, I think, 45 days. Dummies. Yeah I said that. Plus some freeworld charges and TDC cases. Duuuuhhhh! Like they won't know they're wigging out on cocaine & heroin. These police watch every move you make in here. Well, some do anyways.
News Flash - I'm almost positive this new legislature law is gonna get me out sooner than I thought. It's called CSHB-2649 law that goes into effect September 1st. YAAAYYY!!! *High Five*
Damien's Post Script: Tammi will be sending me new stuff every few days and I'll be updating from either here or my tablet every time it comes in. If you're reading this, write back to her and let her know. I've been spamming the hell out of my Twitter because my Facebook spamming just isn't working and I tend to spam it a lot from my phone. Those anti-spam measures on Facebook stink worse than the butthole of a skunk.
On another note, I have to make a retraction. Tammi isn't in jail as I've previously stated. This is a prison run by the state of Texas. You would think that I would know the difference (and I really should have by now) however, I made a huge error in that part. My bad. Anyway, get ready for more updates and I'll be posting them for the little while longer that Tammi's not here with us. Personally, I can't wait til she is.
7/29/11
Okay enough complaining about being back in Hope - Literacy. It's a "God Pod" and you don't get classes in a regular dorm like you do in here. So I'd rather be here learning something as opposed to being on another floor just doing dead time. Obviously, the chances of getting maced in here are a lot slimmer, so that's a plus! I'm just now starting to breathe right - That mace ain't no punk.
I was just thinking...I used to have the craziest nightmares while I was in the free world. I would actually wake my ex up screaming. I even blogged about it a few times. What's so weird is that it's like some things are coming true. I even had a recurring nightmare that I got locked up in a cell alone which actually happened when I went on medical chain to the Goree Unit in Huntsville. Weird huh?
8/1/11
I just want to publicly acknowledge the person putting my crazy rambling on my blog for me :-).
Thanks so much, Damien, for being such a good friend to me for so long. I have appreciated & cherished your words of wisdom, advice & feedback each time you gave it. And unlike some of my friends that seem like they've forgotten me (just cuz I made a mistake)I want you to know that it means a lot to me that you are still hanging in here with me (Huggs) "Ride or Die."
I went to see the psyche today to do a madatory evaluation and it's confirmed I'm still crazy. Kidding! Ha! But I honestly that I could have played the depression card and got put on a psych med like a lot of people do. But the thing is, since I abused Xanax and Vicodin in the world, I absolutely refuse to become dependent on any prescription medication. I've gone this long without anything and I feel great. Sure, this place is depressing. It's actually meant to be because it's meant to be punishment for people that break the law. I figure if I can handle this stress without crazy meds, then I can do anything. Change is beautiful because if nothing changes, nothing changes."
8/2/11
I'm thinking about cutting my hair off. It's past the middle of my back and it's like a big headache in here. I mean it's not like we have access to Paul Mitchell or Pantene in here. I wish. I'm just not too sure I wanna drop a form to go to the beauty shop because they only use clippers to cut your hair. No shears at all. What??? I've never used a pair of clippers to cut long hair. Never seen it donw so I think I'll pass. I have seen some haircuts done with fingernail clippers. It's a prison thing. Ha ha! I think I'll pass on that too. I think I'll just wait til I get out of here.
8/3/11
My really good friend is going home today. She's been locked up for a year and, even though I'm so happy to see her go home to her kids, I'll admit that I'm a little sad. Only because we've grown so close, I'll feel lost without her. She's about the only person I know with a sense of humor as warped as mine! Ha! We really have been trying to laugh our way through all this craziness but we've had our share of tears. So if you're reading this right now "Mama-K" - you keep being strong out there and doing the next right think and you'll never have to worry about coming back here. I miss ya already, ladybug!
They always say never get too close to anybody in prison because you didn't come with anybody and you won't leave with anybody but it's almost inevitable because you're around people literally 24 hours a day and well I've never been a "loner". I guess I probably should have been a few times in my life but I guess I'm just a people person and I cant do time without someone to B.S. with. That's why segregation almost drove me ding batty. Ha ha! Of course I don't make it a habit of associating with some of these convicts. I mena you can't take a lot of criminals (druggies, prostitutes, thieves, even mentally ill) people off the streets throw them all in a dorm and expect everyone to get along...just sayin'. But sometimes there are people in here that just don't seem to have that criminal mentality that others do. Even first time offenders that were stay-at-home mom, good wives, went to church and basically lived the Leave It To Beaver life that went out and broke the law and wound up here. Sad, but it happens. And then there are people out there breaking the law all the time and just don't get caught. Maybe they are just smarter than the rest of us (doubt it) or maybe they're just lucky.
Eventually that luck will run out though. It usually does. Hate to be the bearer of B-A-D news.
8/4/11
Today is commissary day and, as usual, people are swinging off the rafters, all hyped up an sugar and caffeine - so it's like, so loud in here. It's a total drag going through the whole process - waiting in a two-hour line, etc. But, of course, it's worth it because I buy a lot of stuff like Ramen soups and all kinds of crazy stuff to put in them (pickles, mayo, fritos, squeeze cheese) there are a lot of different ways to make a soup when you can't eat this nasty mess they try to feed you. On top of that TDC stopped feeding three meals a day on weekends. If it's not nasty, you eat at 6am and 6pm on Saturday and Sunday and please believe even though I'm not a big eater, my stomach has an affair with my backbone before lights our at 1am (10pm Monday through Friday). Anyways - So I'm stocked up until next store day (10 to 14 days unless we go on lockdown).
Speaking of lockdown. Seems as though one of the men's floors are all on lockdown. Yikes!. They've got caught with drugs - plus they all got U.A.s (urinalysis) and of course, a bunch of them came up dirty, so they all lose contact visits for, I think, 45 days. Dummies. Yeah I said that. Plus some freeworld charges and TDC cases. Duuuuhhhh! Like they won't know they're wigging out on cocaine & heroin. These police watch every move you make in here. Well, some do anyways.
News Flash - I'm almost positive this new legislature law is gonna get me out sooner than I thought. It's called CSHB-2649 law that goes into effect September 1st. YAAAYYY!!! *High Five*
Damien's Post Script: Tammi will be sending me new stuff every few days and I'll be updating from either here or my tablet every time it comes in. If you're reading this, write back to her and let her know. I've been spamming the hell out of my Twitter because my Facebook spamming just isn't working and I tend to spam it a lot from my phone. Those anti-spam measures on Facebook stink worse than the butthole of a skunk.
On another note, I have to make a retraction. Tammi isn't in jail as I've previously stated. This is a prison run by the state of Texas. You would think that I would know the difference (and I really should have by now) however, I made a huge error in that part. My bad. Anyway, get ready for more updates and I'll be posting them for the little while longer that Tammi's not here with us. Personally, I can't wait til she is.
1 comments:
Hi Tam.. Miss you.. Hope all is going well. Hope damien tell you when we comment here.. I stop by when I notice a new post up an I have written to you. I will again later and hope to get it out soon. Love u woman and miss your witty comments on my blog.
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